Do it on your own!

I have realized that through out my life, I've been depending on people to make me happy. It's not like I want them to make me happy, no. It's just that I thought of them as a cause to my happiness but somehow, they all failed at a certain point. I realized that I expected too much from them.. In other words I expected people to treat me just the way I treated them, but that wasn't the case. Being self-less causes only hurt!
I learned it the hard way perhaps. As years pass me by.. I'm learning that I could not really depend on anyone but myself, because I know that I will never fail myself, I will never let myself down. However, with so many people depending on me most of the time in almost everything is overwhelming me. It's pressuring me sometimes.. But being the person I am, I can't let them down either. Even though, it means sometimes that I have to carry them on my shoulders so they'd reach their destination no matter how tired & exhausted I am. I chose this. I chose to be a reliable person who is always there for people when needed. But, I'm only human. I break sometimes. From time to time I do need a break, I need to rely on someone.. I need to depend on someone  & trust them enough... So far, I can't do that.. but I do hope I could do this one day.. at least before reaching the rear bottom..